what kind of freaks actually had time to update on christmas eve? i didn't even come home until nearly 1 a.m.!

i've got a lot of updates, but i'm so tired i'll probably forget half of it. don't you just love how your memory works? blah.

but yeah, it was a busy day. i somehow managed to sleep in until 1 p.m. today. it was pure heaven. i forced myself up and tried to help around the house as much as i could. there was still no tree, or even decorations so it was quite depressing. and since i'm motherless this christmas, no one bothered making a dinner. i would have made a vegetarian chinese dinner, but we ended up going to burger king during the afternoon and weren't hungry by supper time. so chinese dinner will be tomorrow.

we went to the grocery store today, because my dad won this huge framed print, supposedly very expensive or something (it was authentically signed and everything). we got there and the thing was HUGE, like those big ones you stick up on a wall and it takes up half the wall. it's a scenic picture, and the frame is just beautiful. i just felt like sharing that with you. i told you i'm really lucky (if i didn't, now you know).

i also went to the drug store to buy my dad a christmas card. the christmas card section was pretty sparse, and there were like three dad cards to pick from. yuck. teaches me not to leave cards until the last minute. i wanted to get one for justin too, but i didn't feel it was appropriate as we're only seeing each other and i didn't want to appear totally attached to him.

i even went to church today. and i sung all the hymns and everything. don't i feel proud. i saw a few people i hadn't seen in ages, it was actually not totally horrific.

i think after that... i started phoning everyone up to wish them a merry christmas and all that mushy stuff. i even called my mother (adopted one) to see how she was doing. i still resent her for thinking her abusive boyfriend is more important than her own daughter that she won't see for eight months straight because of her antics.

melissa says i got a christmas present over there in the mail from manda. i want it! she won't tell me what it is, so i'm just going to have to wait until i go back to open it. and besides my digital camera, i think that's the only christmas present i'm getting. though justin says he's going to have something for me tomorrow. he hardly knows me, so i don't have any idea what it's going to be.

i spent the evening trying to get a christmas tree in this house, then we finally got one around 6:30 this evening. we are such procrastinators. it didn't even get decorated until around 2 a.m. wooo.

so around 8:30, it was time to visit! i didn't get very far, as i spent over an hour at nicole's, and then the rest of the night at justin's.

so, the whole justin situation. i'm getting quite attached to him, though i don't feel all too attracted to guys at all right now. it's quite depressing because justin is a total sweetheart (for the most part anyway) and there aren't any female possibilites for me at the moment anyway. but even so, i gave him a huge kiss when i got in the door. i'm going to miss him so much when i leave. i gave him his tongue ring and he was so happy when he saw it. he had to test it out on me of course, and it's pretty funny when our studs clack against each other every now and then.

we spent the night in his room watching movies, though that didn't last long. we really got into the moment, and i had to stop him. not that i didn't want to stop things, no, no, no. but i'm far too insecure about my body and it gets in the way of my relationships. he's really understanding though, and we cuddled for most of the rest of the night.

and, we finally stated where we stood. i'm proud to say that we now belong to each other. he didn't even ask me... it was sort of that "are you my boyfriend/are you my girlfriend" scenario, and then we decided it was so. i could just swoon =o) he's not too pleased to hear that i'm leaving early boxing day. have i even mentioned that yet?

well, i'm leaving at 7 a.m. on boxing day, to go and visit my birth mother. all expenses paid on her account of course. i'm not sure if it'll be okay, because she's a psycho drunk, but i want to go and see my cousins. i don't come back until the 30th, and i'm going to miss justin like crazy.

oooh, and i'll be happy to say, that for the first time in years, i'm not stuck wrapping christmas presents this year. my dad's out in the living room as i speak, making scotch tape noises, and it's music to my ears.

so, merry christmas.

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